First post in a while....

Well I"m gonna grab a blog from my MySpace and land it here for ya'll! But to some things up completely...I am single now....Jay and I are done and honestly I think I'm cool with it! but yea so here is a good long blog for ya!

So this all began when my friend Amanda introduced me to "Army Boy"....we'll call him that because he's still in the closet....We started to talk and he was amazing, EVERYTHING I was looking for in a man! We talked on and off constantly for about 7 or more hours, and just kept learning more and more about each other. We also discussed him coming to see me when he came home for two weeks and such, and it couldn't have been going any better. That night I went out to the bar with Aly and Kristin and didn't get home till about 5. Now where he is it's 6 hours ahead so I figured he would be up soon so I dropped him a note on myspace, a message not a comment, and then went to bed. Now is where it gets interesting! I got up the next day and went on myspace to check and see if he had written back, and he hadn't so I signed on AIM and waited for him to sign on. When he hadn't signed on in about an hour I checked myspace again and noticed that he was not on my top friends anymore! Now I was thinking "What the fuck?" Also I noticed that it said he was online on myspace....So I switched names on AIM and sure enough he was online! I tried to ask what was up and he blocked me. I changed screen names again and finally got him to talk and he said "I did a lot of thinking and soul searching and decided I don't want to be with a guy, it's not where I want my life to go." Now I'm sorry NO ONE goes from pratically in love with you to wanting nothing to do with you that quickly and that extreme!

After thinking about it for a couple days I finally came to realize that this has nothing to do with me, but with the fact that his family has no idea and he was raised a strict christian! Now I believe in God and such and I am Catholic, but I'm for the most part what is written in the Bible I DO NOT believe! It kills me that people don't see that a lot of what is stated in the Bible is at time VERY ignorant and also usually promotes hatred, specifically towards Homosexuals! This is the kind of shit people commit suicide over....they believe that their Religion is "Law" and then repress who they really are in fear that they will "Burn in Hell!" I'm sorry but if God doesn't like Gays they why the fuck did he make us this way? Someone wanna answer me that because I've always been taught that "God made us in his image"....if that is the case then what is written in the bible about gays is BULLSHIT!!!! I DO NOT believe in a piece of writing that promotes ignorance and hatred toward ANYONE whether it be gays or whoever! Making someone feel as if they can't be who they are is just WRONG, this is America and we are ALL equal and all deserve the same rights no matter skin color, sexual preference or whatever! And while we are on the subject I also want to add that BUSH IS NOT FUCKING HELPING THE MATTER EITHER! Besides the "Gay Issue" he has done plenty of fucked up things and I'm sorry but the man should have been impeached a LONG ASS TIME AGO!! I'm not gonna even go into detail about Bush because I will be here FOREVER!

So yea I wanted to get this off my chest and if you feel like letting me know how you feel then feel free, This is my opinion and I would love to know what others think!

So yea if you feel like commenting then go for it....Later!