So about a week ago I got a letter from one of my girlfriends from back in the day....and it was a very sweet letter! At first it really didn't phase me too much...but after I read it again I couldn't believe what her friends had asked her! Who the hell asks someone "Do you feel responsible for the way he is now?" Ok I'm sorry but that is just pure IGNORANCE! Now I'm not attacking anyone or anything I'm just stating my point of view on this because it just annoys the hell outta me that people still think this way about things!!!
I dated a few girls between 6th and 10th grade and honestly I only really remember the important ones that were actually around for a while. I may have had a few shorter dating periods with some girls but I don't really remember. Besides who and how many I did date is NOT important! What is important is that every girl I did date needs to know it's not their fault I am "this way!" I am the way I am because I've always been this way. I was born this way, and back then I was really confused about who I was!!! I can honestly say that each girl I had a significant relationship with has touched my life in one way or another. They all still and always will have a place in my heart for the simple fact that they played a key roll in helping me find myself! I do not regret anything that I've done in my life and honestly probably never will because everything that I have been through at this point in my life has made me the man I am today! It really sucks that someone would honestly think that one girl or anyone for that matter made me the way I am! It's ridiculous and completely NOT true!
I do want to take this time to thank those girls...you know who you are....for sticking by me during that rough period in my life and if I ever hurt you in any way shape or form I apologize because it was NOT my intention to hurt anyone! You have truly played a large roll in my life and I am thankful everyday that I had each of you in my life!!! I know who I am now and I'm completely happy with the way I turned out! I have been blessed to have had each of you in my life!
To the people out there who still do not understand the concept of how sexuality works....Think before you say stupid things because one of these days you are going to really offend someone or hurt someone's feelings!!! You honestly should NOT being talking about something if you don't understand it!!
Life is what YOU make it people!!! Live your life to the fullest and live it the way YOU want to live....never let ANYONE bring you down.....Life is too short to let other people make you feel you're not good enough or let what other people think control your life....I learned this the hard way!!
The next time you hear someone say something stupid about something they don't understand....educate them! We need to stop this "idea" that being gay is a choice because new flash......IT'S NOT!!!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, August 9, 2007
First post in a while....
Well I"m gonna grab a blog from my MySpace and land it here for ya'll! But to some things up completely...I am single now....Jay and I are done and honestly I think I'm cool with it! but yea so here is a good long blog for ya!
So this all began when my friend Amanda introduced me to "Army Boy"....we'll call him that because he's still in the closet....We started to talk and he was amazing, EVERYTHING I was looking for in a man! We talked on and off constantly for about 7 or more hours, and just kept learning more and more about each other. We also discussed him coming to see me when he came home for two weeks and such, and it couldn't have been going any better. That night I went out to the bar with Aly and Kristin and didn't get home till about 5. Now where he is it's 6 hours ahead so I figured he would be up soon so I dropped him a note on myspace, a message not a comment, and then went to bed. Now is where it gets interesting! I got up the next day and went on myspace to check and see if he had written back, and he hadn't so I signed on AIM and waited for him to sign on. When he hadn't signed on in about an hour I checked myspace again and noticed that he was not on my top friends anymore! Now I was thinking "What the fuck?" Also I noticed that it said he was online on myspace....So I switched names on AIM and sure enough he was online! I tried to ask what was up and he blocked me. I changed screen names again and finally got him to talk and he said "I did a lot of thinking and soul searching and decided I don't want to be with a guy, it's not where I want my life to go." Now I'm sorry NO ONE goes from pratically in love with you to wanting nothing to do with you that quickly and that extreme!
After thinking about it for a couple days I finally came to realize that this has nothing to do with me, but with the fact that his family has no idea and he was raised a strict christian! Now I believe in God and such and I am Catholic, but I'm for the most part what is written in the Bible I DO NOT believe! It kills me that people don't see that a lot of what is stated in the Bible is at time VERY ignorant and also usually promotes hatred, specifically towards Homosexuals! This is the kind of shit people commit suicide over....they believe that their Religion is "Law" and then repress who they really are in fear that they will "Burn in Hell!" I'm sorry but if God doesn't like Gays they why the fuck did he make us this way? Someone wanna answer me that because I've always been taught that "God made us in his image"....if that is the case then what is written in the bible about gays is BULLSHIT!!!! I DO NOT believe in a piece of writing that promotes ignorance and hatred toward ANYONE whether it be gays or whoever! Making someone feel as if they can't be who they are is just WRONG, this is America and we are ALL equal and all deserve the same rights no matter skin color, sexual preference or whatever! And while we are on the subject I also want to add that BUSH IS NOT FUCKING HELPING THE MATTER EITHER! Besides the "Gay Issue" he has done plenty of fucked up things and I'm sorry but the man should have been impeached a LONG ASS TIME AGO!! I'm not gonna even go into detail about Bush because I will be here FOREVER!
So yea I wanted to get this off my chest and if you feel like letting me know how you feel then feel free, This is my opinion and I would love to know what others think!
So yea if you feel like commenting then go for it....Later!
So this all began when my friend Amanda introduced me to "Army Boy"....we'll call him that because he's still in the closet....We started to talk and he was amazing, EVERYTHING I was looking for in a man! We talked on and off constantly for about 7 or more hours, and just kept learning more and more about each other. We also discussed him coming to see me when he came home for two weeks and such, and it couldn't have been going any better. That night I went out to the bar with Aly and Kristin and didn't get home till about 5. Now where he is it's 6 hours ahead so I figured he would be up soon so I dropped him a note on myspace, a message not a comment, and then went to bed. Now is where it gets interesting! I got up the next day and went on myspace to check and see if he had written back, and he hadn't so I signed on AIM and waited for him to sign on. When he hadn't signed on in about an hour I checked myspace again and noticed that he was not on my top friends anymore! Now I was thinking "What the fuck?" Also I noticed that it said he was online on myspace....So I switched names on AIM and sure enough he was online! I tried to ask what was up and he blocked me. I changed screen names again and finally got him to talk and he said "I did a lot of thinking and soul searching and decided I don't want to be with a guy, it's not where I want my life to go." Now I'm sorry NO ONE goes from pratically in love with you to wanting nothing to do with you that quickly and that extreme!
After thinking about it for a couple days I finally came to realize that this has nothing to do with me, but with the fact that his family has no idea and he was raised a strict christian! Now I believe in God and such and I am Catholic, but I'm for the most part what is written in the Bible I DO NOT believe! It kills me that people don't see that a lot of what is stated in the Bible is at time VERY ignorant and also usually promotes hatred, specifically towards Homosexuals! This is the kind of shit people commit suicide over....they believe that their Religion is "Law" and then repress who they really are in fear that they will "Burn in Hell!" I'm sorry but if God doesn't like Gays they why the fuck did he make us this way? Someone wanna answer me that because I've always been taught that "God made us in his image"....if that is the case then what is written in the bible about gays is BULLSHIT!!!! I DO NOT believe in a piece of writing that promotes ignorance and hatred toward ANYONE whether it be gays or whoever! Making someone feel as if they can't be who they are is just WRONG, this is America and we are ALL equal and all deserve the same rights no matter skin color, sexual preference or whatever! And while we are on the subject I also want to add that BUSH IS NOT FUCKING HELPING THE MATTER EITHER! Besides the "Gay Issue" he has done plenty of fucked up things and I'm sorry but the man should have been impeached a LONG ASS TIME AGO!! I'm not gonna even go into detail about Bush because I will be here FOREVER!
So yea I wanted to get this off my chest and if you feel like letting me know how you feel then feel free, This is my opinion and I would love to know what others think!
So yea if you feel like commenting then go for it....Later!
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Feedback needed!!
I'm not really sure which of the people I gave this address to really read this blog, but whoever does please take a listen to the song that is playing. The song is "She's Like The Wind" originally by Lumidee Feat. Tony Sunshine, but me and Aly decided to play around with it and what you hear is what came out. Let me know what you think! Thanks....ttyl!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Hi
So I'm sitting here watching Will & Grace all by my lonesome and decided to write a little, though I'm beginning to think that no one even reads this but whatever. Anyways, Aly is still gone for a few more days, I have to pick her up Wenesday. Jason is in Philly and I kinda miss him. Amber has Gary down here now so she's been busy. I dunno guess I'm just a little lonely.....but yea so I'm gonna go, later.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Gwen Stefani Tonight!!!
Well after months of waiting it's finally time to go see Gwen Stefani, and just an FYI I'll be seeing Kelly Clarkson in August!! YAY!!! TTYL!!
Friday, May 18, 2007
Texas cancelled...
So over the past few days a lot has happened. The whole thing with Ryan hit a wall, and honestly it was all understandable. I mean he has a lot going on in his life right now and keeping up a very long distance relationship is a lot of work so right now just wasn't very good timing. So sadly I won't be going to Texas unless things change between now and the first week of August, so we'll see what the future holds.
Also happening is that Jason has done a complete 360. Everything that was wrong with our relationship he is now willing to work on and he has claimed to change. I guess him and his sister had a talk about him and I and turns out she told him he was pretty much a stupid bastard for treating me the way he did. I think she may have finally woken him up, but at the same time I'm still a little uneasy about getting too involved again. I may give him a small chance to prove he has changed but I don't know if things will ever be the way they were before. I'm not sure I can ever let him back in after the damage has been done.
So all in all it's been a pretty shitty week. Any advice anyone would like to give would be greatly appreciated!! And so now I leave you with a new music video! YAY, Fergie's video for "Big Girls Don't Cry" has finally been released and it's awesome! So here it is, check it out!!
Also happening is that Jason has done a complete 360. Everything that was wrong with our relationship he is now willing to work on and he has claimed to change. I guess him and his sister had a talk about him and I and turns out she told him he was pretty much a stupid bastard for treating me the way he did. I think she may have finally woken him up, but at the same time I'm still a little uneasy about getting too involved again. I may give him a small chance to prove he has changed but I don't know if things will ever be the way they were before. I'm not sure I can ever let him back in after the damage has been done.
So all in all it's been a pretty shitty week. Any advice anyone would like to give would be greatly appreciated!! And so now I leave you with a new music video! YAY, Fergie's video for "Big Girls Don't Cry" has finally been released and it's awesome! So here it is, check it out!!
Monday, May 14, 2007
On a lighter note....
Here's a video for you guys to check out! Up and coming artist Nikki Flores. I believe this is her single currently, but there is no video so this one is a live video. Check it out and enjoy! Oh yea...the song is called "I Wanna Know You Like That."
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